Work Diary Entry of Thomas Hardy

Dear Diary,
                  this is the first time that I write in this diary, and I want to express my feelings here as I did when I wrote "The Voice", dedicated to my sweet and little wife. First, I would like to express my feelings with the word sad. My wife died quite sad because I couldn´t help her, so the minimum thing that I can do for her is to dedicate her a poem. I just want to see her one last time, I feel so guilty. Two days ago I was sure that it was her who called me, but now, I am not so sure. She is gone, I must understand that. Those are all my feelings, those are all my words.